Where DOES the time go?

Time has moved on... quite a lot of life.   Blogging for me used to be my outlet, my way of exploring my thoughts and finding the lessons behind them.   I stopped blogging for quite a while... not sure why, but I think the time has come to start again.   

Looking through some of my old blogs has allowed me to see that while my thoughts are often quite complex and life not altogether easy, my thoughts do lead me in a positive way to more often than not feel better at the end of a post than I was at the beginning.  What a fantastic thing!

So, on that note, let's fill in some gaps.   Life has happened.  Kids have grown (both in school now - and doing well!).   Our business has expanded - we now have two businesses instead of one.  My volunteer work has grown and expanded also.   With all of this growth my stress levels have also grown and this, unfortunately, isn't a good thing.  

My balance has been lost over the past few months and I have been trying desperately to regain it.  I have tried to delegate jobs to others (perhaps I need to 'do' and not 'try?').   This has in the short term created more work as I develop the systems needed, however I am now on the edge of a slight amount of increased space in my day.   Phew!!!!!!

The result, unfortunately, has been that with my increased stress levels has come a relapse in 'my' Meniere's dis-ease.   Bugger.    Vertigo is back (no where near as severe as before though!) and it has unfortunately become bilateral.  Both ears.   My hearing at this stage is reduced in my right ear, but not gone (my left is all but non-functional).   I haven't had a full hearing test at this stage to see if I also have distortion, but I do have reduced hearing in the lower ranges of the normal hearing spectrum.   Bugger.

I have suspected for a while now that my allergies and my illnesses are related to my gut health.    I do, unfortunately, keep getting contaminated with gluten, and that is a bad thing.   I also suspect that grains are a no-go for me.   I know that when I have a no sugar, no grain diet I feel so much better, I lose a considerable amount of weight and my hormones start to stabilise.     I am also hoping... my gut instinct says this is correct... that it will also allow the meniere's to reverse itself.   Improving gut health will have to reduce the amount of inflammation in my body.   I have autoimmune thyroid, coeliac disease, Meniere's disease, roseacea (both cheeks and nose - looks like a dark burn across my face - needless to say I wear make-up every day!) and asthma.   In the past three years I have developed pneumonia three times.   My lymph system is struggling... I keep having the lymph nodes under my armpits swell and redden to the size of large grapes... which is quite a painful condition!    This occurs if I am fighting off a fairly minor head cold.    I also have quite severe hayfever and sinus.    Not good, but not life threatening... and perhaps the wake-up call that is screaming at me to make a change.

So make a change I plan to do.    I am aiming in taking up a paleo lifestyle.   Only fresh meats and plenty of fresh fruit and vegetables.   Cutting preservatives where possible, reducing the chemicals in my food.   Focussing on stress release, meditation, yoga and gentle, natural exercise.    Positive thoughts and a positive life.    Big changes a foot, so wish me luck!   I know that I can do this and now I believe that I must do this.   If it feels good, I want to do it.   If a friendship feels good I wish to persue it.   Focus on the positive and  focus on improvement.   

Watch this space!